11.01.2007

Update

I haven't been writing lately, for a personal reason. I don't want to say much more, but I guess I wanted to let my few faithful readers know that the silence hasn't just been because I'm too busy or have nothing to say. I've had a lot to say, but I haven't felt like this is the right place to express myself. Every post I write gets colored by this negative influence, and before I know it, I can't publish the post because it becomes inappropriate.

(It's always the best writing that probably shouldn't be published. Alas, I'm not going to go for the cheap thrills, and my posts of late will remain unpublished.)

Anyway, I just felt like making it known that it's not negligence and it's not indifference and it's nothing truly serious, but there is a little ineffable something that's keeping me mute.

And maybe when I'm back to writing snappy, happy essayettes, I'll expound on why "ineffable" is such a fantastic word.

Oh, and there's also this:

Get this thing off me Mommy!
Originally uploaded by generaltsao.

2 comments:

jfh said...

ineffable is a lovely word. does it have something to do with, oh, say: this writing effing stinks
or I can't take this effing heat anymore
;)

Sarah Goss said...

I can relate to this (although of course I don't know what the specific negative influence is). I sometimes feel like I have so much to say, but my blog isn't the appropriate place to say it. I feel frustrated, because I want to say what's really on my mind instead of writing snappy little vignettes, but there is just no way to write the way I sometimes want to on my blog. I picture my possible audience--and who knows if these people are even really reading it?--and I feel clammed up, overwhelmed by all the possible feelings and reactions I could risk creating in people. It gets pretty frustrating--especially imagining my students googling me and reading my blog. That REALLY clams me up, let me tell ya. Blog openness is hard!